My bleeding has tapered down to spotting. I started temping/charting again when my miscarriage started. This will help me recognize when I ovulate. I believe my body will ovulate when it's ready. I still want to do a blood test just to check my hcg and iron levels before we start ttc.
Anyhow, as we head back on the journey of trying to conceive, I'll have to deal with the obsession and crazy emotions involved. This time around I will try not to do too much symptom spotting unless there's something different than usual.
Even though I've just gone through a miscarriage, I fundamentally still feel that moderation is the key. I won't freak or get paranoid about all the "what not to do and things to avoid" if we get pregnant again. I might feel different if we do miscarry again... but in the end if we have another healthy baby, it will be worth it. And if not, well going through the experience together builds who we are and gives us more empathy and understanding in the struggles others go through also. Things happen for a reason, sometimes it might not make sense to us but we can't change the past. We can only choose how we want to move forward.
Showing posts with label Miscarriage. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Miscarriage. Show all posts
Monday, February 20, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Bleeding
Today I was able to take Isaac to school and get back home without incident. I made dumplings for lunch. Then... It started.
I've been dripping like a faucet and passing some big clots for the past hour. I put on a movie (Wall-E) for Isaac and he fell asleep watching it. I'm great full that I'm not experiencing any nasty cramps at the moment, but I have to say that this is definitely NOT the most comfortable experience to have to go through. I'm also glad that I am in the comfort of my home and M. Is here with me.
I played some games on my DS and tried the read a book, but I'm too tired to focus. Last night was a bit rough because I couldn't sleep. When I looked at the clock, it was already 4am! It's quite boring sitting on a toilet for what feels like forever when I'd much rather be napping!!! Typing on the iPad keyboard is tedious, but that's about the level of concentration I have and it's giving me something to do besides listening to Wall-E.
I hope that most of this will pass within a couple more hours. I've read that once the sac comes out the bleeding should slow down. I wish our toilet seat was cushier.
3:47pm: I am now resting in bed. At around 3pm, I started blacking out. It was really scary. My vision was reduced to black and yellow shadows of light, my ears suddenly muted and I found that I couldn't breathe. I immediately called M to come help me. He didn't know what to do, so he just held me. I started getting numb all over and insisted on lying down. Shortly after, my vision came back, my head cleared and I could hear and breathe normally. Then the cramping started right away. It felt pretty intense. M. tried to give me the Tylenol and 2 Advils as soon as he could. I felt a bit nauseous and wasn't sure if I could swallow them, but I managed to in between my panting. I got M. to call the doctor. After a very long 15 minutes or so, the pain subsided enough and I felt ready to pass the sac. M. brought me a towel to lie on, a pillow and a blanket. After the sac came out and I lay back on the floor. I was feeling cold all over, my hands were still tingly and I was a bit light headed. I spoke with a doctor and she reassured me that the cramping should stop within 24-48 hours. They will be checking up on me tomorrow. After lying on the floor for about 20 minutes, I felt ready to get up. I picked up the sac and opened it up to look at it before flushing it away.
I'm relieved that the worst part should be over now!!! Even though I had to go through a miscarriage, I still want to try for a healthy baby even if there's a risk of having to go through with this again.
Time for me to take a little nap before dinner time. Love and hugs, Vee.
I've been dripping like a faucet and passing some big clots for the past hour. I put on a movie (Wall-E) for Isaac and he fell asleep watching it. I'm great full that I'm not experiencing any nasty cramps at the moment, but I have to say that this is definitely NOT the most comfortable experience to have to go through. I'm also glad that I am in the comfort of my home and M. Is here with me.
I played some games on my DS and tried the read a book, but I'm too tired to focus. Last night was a bit rough because I couldn't sleep. When I looked at the clock, it was already 4am! It's quite boring sitting on a toilet for what feels like forever when I'd much rather be napping!!! Typing on the iPad keyboard is tedious, but that's about the level of concentration I have and it's giving me something to do besides listening to Wall-E.
I hope that most of this will pass within a couple more hours. I've read that once the sac comes out the bleeding should slow down. I wish our toilet seat was cushier.
3:47pm: I am now resting in bed. At around 3pm, I started blacking out. It was really scary. My vision was reduced to black and yellow shadows of light, my ears suddenly muted and I found that I couldn't breathe. I immediately called M to come help me. He didn't know what to do, so he just held me. I started getting numb all over and insisted on lying down. Shortly after, my vision came back, my head cleared and I could hear and breathe normally. Then the cramping started right away. It felt pretty intense. M. tried to give me the Tylenol and 2 Advils as soon as he could. I felt a bit nauseous and wasn't sure if I could swallow them, but I managed to in between my panting. I got M. to call the doctor. After a very long 15 minutes or so, the pain subsided enough and I felt ready to pass the sac. M. brought me a towel to lie on, a pillow and a blanket. After the sac came out and I lay back on the floor. I was feeling cold all over, my hands were still tingly and I was a bit light headed. I spoke with a doctor and she reassured me that the cramping should stop within 24-48 hours. They will be checking up on me tomorrow. After lying on the floor for about 20 minutes, I felt ready to get up. I picked up the sac and opened it up to look at it before flushing it away.
I'm relieved that the worst part should be over now!!! Even though I had to go through a miscarriage, I still want to try for a healthy baby even if there's a risk of having to go through with this again.
Time for me to take a little nap before dinner time. Love and hugs, Vee.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Wait is coming to an end
I started spotting Thursday night and Friday night. We went out for lunch with friends. Afterwards, we stopped by Zellers and I started to feel lots of lower pressure radiating down. We immediately left the store and M dropped me off at home. I took an extra strength Tylenol and an extra strength Advil, turned on my heating pad and am curling up in bed. Hopefully the worst will be over today. 12:22pm Saturday February 11th.
I would've been 12 weeks tomorrow. At least the pain killers are helping at the moment. Last night I was up thinking about all the things I wanted to say. I will save that for a post when this is over. I'm going to play some games for now until that distraction no longer works.
12:55pm The pain has subsided... Or maybe it's just the pain killers kicking in. No bleeding as yet.
4:13pm Still no bleeding. I guess maybe things settled down for now.
I would've been 12 weeks tomorrow. At least the pain killers are helping at the moment. Last night I was up thinking about all the things I wanted to say. I will save that for a post when this is over. I'm going to play some games for now until that distraction no longer works.
12:55pm The pain has subsided... Or maybe it's just the pain killers kicking in. No bleeding as yet.
4:13pm Still no bleeding. I guess maybe things settled down for now.
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